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Days like this....I wish you were here. As well as Dad. Days like this, I know both of you would just be over the moon with joy. Been a minute since I wrote. Been a weird year with all the cold. I can hear you already. "I'm soooo over this winter....I mean.....is it gonna snow in June?!!" hahahahaa. I thought of you so much the last few days. Pralle's cousin AJ, his mom had a bad heart attack. I checked in with Pralle a lot. There family always been so good and caring of me and us. Pralle said his Aunt had took a turn for the better, moving, listening....only a day after a bad heart attack...and then as Pralle was going to come up to see her...she passed on. AJ and I have always had a cool relationship. Just caring from day one until now. Ironically enough, his wife was the first person I saw who was monitoring Steph Laurie. Go figure. I went to pay my respects and they all were shocked, but so appreciative. Even asking what I am up to these days. It was just great. Their family....they are the most caring people in the world. Pralle's mom, whose sister passed, always such a positive person, his dad as well, but I know the reality set in.....Pralle even said..."my mom told me she was going to go see Peggy...." Peggy is gone. It's just sad. Especially for sisters. 

That brings me to today. Of course I've been trying to be up there for Ace and him learning ice hockey. Mom, he has gotten so much better. To go from never knowing how to skate...to never falling....it's amazing to watch. Especially as someone who knows the journey from beginner. So I get approved to coach Center Ice CHIP program and then PV little guys had a parent-player game. So I was like, I might as well. So I get there, maybe before most of the dads. So me and Ace are getting our gear on and the other kids. Then tons of dads come in. I could tell many of them played before. I was more nervous than most of the kids. It was kinda kids vs "dads". It took a little bit to wear off the rust, but it got easier and man, what a workout. I would look up in the stands.....looking for Kane...and maybe you...or look over to Lisa who was on the kid's bench. It really felt like you were there. Dad as well. I really think you and him would've been over the moon to see your son and grandson playing alongside each other. I ended up taking a really bad fall and smacked the back of my head. Thank God had my helmet on. Ace then skated up behind me and said "Looooooser"...hahahahahahahahaha. I'm like you stinkin punk. It was such a great day Mom. 

What really meant so much, aside from just great family time and Buffalo Wild Wings afterwards where I gave Kane his gift. Beavis & Butthead socks and Ace the Jack Hughes tee and our gold medals. I was in such a great mood the whole way home. Even still. It feels great. The thing it really hit me at home. It was the first time I had done something, something from my old non-diabetic life, playing competitive sports. No one knew I was a diabetic. No one even knew who I was. I just said "I'm Ace's uncle." That's it. Cooler even...they put me on the line against his line. How cool!!! I am still over the moon about how things turned out and I scored a goal!!!

I know you and Dad were there Mom. I hope you felt joy seeing us. Bobby



 

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